Relationships
I basically ruined all the friendships I had since I was a kid, and it is me who is the problem, not the people, although I kept myself busy to the point where I don’t feel it most of the time, alongside guilt and fear of making new friendships. I started to drop people before the cycle of me starting to get cold and avoidant begins, which would eventually ruin the friendships or relationships anyway.
your growth is directly proportional to the amount of truth you are willing to accept about yourself.
It’s never simple to confront an insecurity you’ve never recognized before, to finally name something that has quietly shaped you for years. I’m not afraid to acknowledge it but I’m also not very comfortable exposing my vulnerabilities . Still, I believe that notes are a record of my thinking process, and for the sake of honesty, integrity, I can’t ignore the mistakes I’ve made or the impact they’ve had on others. Today I came across a quote that perfectly describes the person I’m, in relationships.
I get asked:
How do you deal with ordinary people? The ones that don’t bother you? and when does it start that they enter your life?