Time Will Pass

I’ve learned since a young age that time will pass.
not moments with loved ones.
not revolutions and the race to wealth.
not the one we age because.

but the time, the one defined by physics, will pass.

and it is us who will choose what to do with this time.

this realization is one of the core intrinsic motivators I’ve had. it is mostly negative. it is what allows me to move forward despite the uncertainty , to bear the missing answers .

it is a pure bubble where I separate myself from the outer world bubble and its complexity, and the inner world of me, my own thoughts. where I imagine just me, the flesh and bones, an individual just like anyone else.

what I’ve been through doesn’t matter.
what I think of now is not important.
what I’m afraid of, no one knows.

it is just flesh and bones.

This is not ideal. it’s more of an empty non logical lens you put on to convince yourself about something. but what if such notions should exist to make life work. what if that’s the only way.

I’ve been in this bubble for a while. that no matter what I’m in, sad, happy, feeling I can conquer the world, unmotivated, empty, surrounded, the time will pass. it will never stop.

and as I think of this notion it leads me to answer a very simple question.

what should I decide to do when the time is moving.

will I crumble and stay unmotivated to do the things I wanted to do.
will I cave in and stay frightened.
will I let myself drown into my own thoughts.

I’ve always decided that I will keep ascending to the mountain summit in the hardest weathers. as I know the time will not wait. I should just take actions.

this once hurt me before and blinded me in ways where I misused it. but I should not abandon this lesson entirely, just because despair clouded me for a bit of time.

life is short and we tend to take things for granted . we somehow convince ourselves that there is always a tomorrow.

I sometimes subconsciously anchor wishing on hope or uncertainty to go away, by living in my head and just keep thinking about a way out endlessly.

what I believe we need is to not live in our heads. as it might not help me, I’ve always thought it will be in my favor for many times.

what we need is courage to take actions.

courage can come from a realization that the time will pass. and if you wake up later seeing how much you wasted by living in your head, how so much potential was wasted that could have been dedicated, you will regret it so bad.

what scares me the most is that while living in your head, or drowning yourself in superficial life , you will not be able to see this and feel this weight. it will be out of your sight.

even if someone warned you from it, you are not in a position where you can easily project yourself into the future and see how the things you are not doing today will shape your life, and will lead to losses you once shallowly thought about.

the thought of time moving on and not waiting for you to pick yourself up is very scary.

it is not a call to run on autopilot for productivity. I think these are what are killing people more, and make them dead from the inside.

it is a call to chase what you truly want. what was missing from your life, and what you want to accomplish.

even if it’s the hardest thing to do.

we might not be here forever.

we don’t know when is our last day here. and once someone puts this in their heart, they would do their best unfolding the chapters of their lives they have been afraid to look into.

they will be urged to start what they never started.
they will have the courage to finish what was never undone.
to think in ways they never were trapped enough to look through.