Relationships

What is the bravest thing you’ve ever said? Help. Asking for help isn’t giving up. It’s refusing to give up. ― Charlie Mackesy

You don’t know about real loss, because that only occurs when you love something more than you love yourself. I doubt you’ve ever dared to love anybody that much.
Sean, Good Will Hunting (Park Bench Scene)

I get asked:

How do you deal with ordinary people? The ones that don’t bother you? and when does it start that they enter your life?

“They thought I’m one, but I’m many.”
— Bakry

Things I was wrong about

Recently, I came to the realization: I’m not giving people what they deserve. I don’t make it easy for them to stay close to me, not only strangers, but even the people who care about me the most. I build walls, my mood is forever changing around them, and constantly not around. And I know this is wrong. I noticed that at the beginning of relationships, I can match people’s energy effortlessly, but over time I gradually drift back into being distant and cold. It feels unfair, it’s hypocrisy. either I shouldn’t appear friendly in the first place, or I should remain consistent with the way I start. which is being friendly forever.